This is a very sensitive topic but I read your posts and, like the others, I felt compelled to reply.
Not being a doctor/therapist, my words may not mean much, but having a little bit of family experience in this area, maybe my words count for something.
First, the alcohol is no good. You need to go see your doctor and discuss your feelings with him. He/She will probably reccomend you see a therapist. You should follow through on that.
Family experiences:
Brother: Moved about 8 hours away to be and party with his friends. Got hooked on weed and was high 24/7 for about 5 years. I spoke to him maybe once a year at Xmas time. The rest of the year I avoided him. After his friends graduated and moved on, it was just him. He went through the same situation you are in now. I finally called him one day and told him to get his act straight. It took him 2-3 more years to straigten up, and he is now doing much better. But I think the key difference is that my brother had family to support him. And I think what you will need is your family. Maybe you'll need to apologize and make amends, but you really have two choices here:
1)Get cleaned up (off the booze) and get your life back on track or,
2)Choose the path of my uncle who has since lost his home, car and boat and currently has alienated his family because he would rather get high. He now lives in a small motorhome somewhere in Fresno.
You need to think about what path you want to take. Please, I think all of us here and your family (if they knew) would support you in choosing option 1. This topic is very near and dear to me simply because I have family members who have and are going through this.
Will, please put the bottle down and get a hobby that gets you out of the house at night. Further drinking will only lead you to negative consequences. You may think you have it under control right now, but at some point it will take control of you.
Please, call your brother/family and get some help...
Not being a doctor/therapist, my words may not mean much, but having a little bit of family experience in this area, maybe my words count for something.
First, the alcohol is no good. You need to go see your doctor and discuss your feelings with him. He/She will probably reccomend you see a therapist. You should follow through on that.
Family experiences:
Brother: Moved about 8 hours away to be and party with his friends. Got hooked on weed and was high 24/7 for about 5 years. I spoke to him maybe once a year at Xmas time. The rest of the year I avoided him. After his friends graduated and moved on, it was just him. He went through the same situation you are in now. I finally called him one day and told him to get his act straight. It took him 2-3 more years to straigten up, and he is now doing much better. But I think the key difference is that my brother had family to support him. And I think what you will need is your family. Maybe you'll need to apologize and make amends, but you really have two choices here:
1)Get cleaned up (off the booze) and get your life back on track or,
2)Choose the path of my uncle who has since lost his home, car and boat and currently has alienated his family because he would rather get high. He now lives in a small motorhome somewhere in Fresno.
You need to think about what path you want to take. Please, I think all of us here and your family (if they knew) would support you in choosing option 1. This topic is very near and dear to me simply because I have family members who have and are going through this.
Will, please put the bottle down and get a hobby that gets you out of the house at night. Further drinking will only lead you to negative consequences. You may think you have it under control right now, but at some point it will take control of you.
Please, call your brother/family and get some help...