Am I the only one that actually hates christmas?
I don't like the whole family thing... basically cos my family is boooooring and their favourite topics are illnesses, deaths and right now my sister's pregnancy... the last one is the only rather interesting one... but not really.
So yeah, I will be forced to visit my grandparents who fight all day long... I 'have to' go there cos they haven't seen me in such a long time... yay. If they wanna see me... they know where I live, so they can always say hi. Then my grandma will tell me the same thing over and over and over again... and then get mad when I tell her that I've heard the story already...
After that she will keep on fighting with my grandpa...
Then my mom and my sis wanna go out for dinner... I don't want to... I'm not in the mood for things like that *shrug*. Plus going to an italian restaurant isn't really a christmas thing in my opinion.
Also I miss my little bunny... he died December 12, 2004... it's a year now but I still miss him like hell. So christmas will always remind me of him and it hurts and it sucks.
R.I.P.
There is only one person that I would love to spend christmas with... but that person is 7000 miles away... on another continent... oh well, sucks ass. I miss the man...
I just think that christmas isn't what it is supposed to be anymore... everything is just about buying something for someone, not really thinking about what, just buy something so you have something... it is not about spending time together anymore, it is such a commercial thing now.... bah.
There is only one thing I really like and really want but I don't even have that... a christmas tree... a real one. I would love to have a real bigass christmas tree and spend my time decorating it... but we don't really have the space at the moment
I don't want any presents either... lol... but I know my family and again they will waste money on candy or some other more or less stupid thing and then I will have to play the happy one etc... if they at least would give me money... lol.
So yeah, christmas sucks, I hate it... thinking about next weekend makes me feel... weird *shudders*
I don't like the whole family thing... basically cos my family is boooooring and their favourite topics are illnesses, deaths and right now my sister's pregnancy... the last one is the only rather interesting one... but not really.
So yeah, I will be forced to visit my grandparents who fight all day long... I 'have to' go there cos they haven't seen me in such a long time... yay. If they wanna see me... they know where I live, so they can always say hi. Then my grandma will tell me the same thing over and over and over again... and then get mad when I tell her that I've heard the story already...
After that she will keep on fighting with my grandpa...
Then my mom and my sis wanna go out for dinner... I don't want to... I'm not in the mood for things like that *shrug*. Plus going to an italian restaurant isn't really a christmas thing in my opinion.
Also I miss my little bunny... he died December 12, 2004... it's a year now but I still miss him like hell. So christmas will always remind me of him and it hurts and it sucks.
R.I.P.
There is only one person that I would love to spend christmas with... but that person is 7000 miles away... on another continent... oh well, sucks ass. I miss the man...
I just think that christmas isn't what it is supposed to be anymore... everything is just about buying something for someone, not really thinking about what, just buy something so you have something... it is not about spending time together anymore, it is such a commercial thing now.... bah.
There is only one thing I really like and really want but I don't even have that... a christmas tree... a real one. I would love to have a real bigass christmas tree and spend my time decorating it... but we don't really have the space at the moment
I don't want any presents either... lol... but I know my family and again they will waste money on candy or some other more or less stupid thing and then I will have to play the happy one etc... if they at least would give me money... lol.
So yeah, christmas sucks, I hate it... thinking about next weekend makes me feel... weird *shudders*