Ryan, I can really sympathize with you. My wife and I do not live together currently and she has in her possession "the packet" which she has all filled out. Its only awaiting her sending it to me and me signing it. I really hope that day never comes. For 11 years she was my best friend, my salvation and my foundation. I took it for granted and wish I could go back and do it all differently.
Get your priorities straight in your heart, and we'll all be here when you are ready to talk about it, or forget about it.