I hope you like the jail food. :nono:
Having gotten drunk enough to not know what Im doing over a woman and ended up with a DUI...and attempted to elude the police before (2 seperate occasions) I can at least say that I know what its like to be out of control. I have been on long term suicidal runs before, and its obvious to me that's what you experienced.
I hope the court sentences you to some counceling because thats what you ultimately need. I dont know you and even I can recognize that what you did (and this post to follow it up) was a cry for help. Talk to someone, as suggested maybe AA is a good place to start. You can turn it around if you really want to...or you can continue down the dark and lonely path to self destruction, its up to you.
Well, you got your wake up call. Are you going to listen? That will be the true test if you are just an asshole waste of life or not. Time to grow the fuck up!