I"m truly sorry for your loss, bless you, your family, friends. and your brother Carson's soul.
I dont know exactly what its like to lose a sibling, but my girlfriend of 3 years lost her 12 year old sister and father 2 and 1/2 years ago at age 17, they were victims of a head on collision caused by a drunk driver, just keep your head up man, and understand that not everthing can be understood, and be thankful for the times you shared with him, and the time you still have here, strength is what will ultimately get you through this, and i know a bunch of us over the net you have never met cant exactly be the full amount of support you need, but we are here for you, if you couldn't already tell :icon_bigg , and every bit counts.
sincerly,
charles